Just don't know

   I am so sorry I have been gone so long. I have been going threw some stuff lately. And I know that I should use this blog as a way to let things out.

   So one October 25th I went out and had some drinks with my mom and got to see some friends I had not seen in a year or so. I am not sure what time it was but my table of friends and I had stepped outside and when we came back I went to take a drink and it tasted funny. I tried it twice. I remember going to my mom's and the door was locked and I did not have my phone so I went back to the bar and called but no one answered. I went back to their house and just kept knocking on the window. My step dad came to the door and opened it.

  I guess then I drove from there to my work (about 20 min away). I don't remember how I made it but I did. The next thing I know someone is knocking on my car window. It was time to work and I was in a blackout. I don't even remember being at work.

  So I got suspended from work and now I am going threw a treatment program so I can go back to work. I am not sure how long I am going to be off but I hope that I get to go back soon. I am doing good now I have not drank in 3 weeks.. I will keep you up to date as I know some more.